I see a future

I see a future that’s not here
I see a past that’s hard to bear
I see a present that’s closed in
I don’t see what others are seeing

I heard a sound that buzzed in
I smelled a scent that blended in
I tasted a drink that was poured in
Wish I could tell you how dark therein

I started walking towards a way
Not knowing what night or day
Did not think to stop or delay
Wish you would join in midway

Came across a land long forsaken
Sounded like an old tune had risen
Tried to pull with a rope that was broken
But the gap only seemed to widen

Left behind all my possession
Couldn’t carry them anymore with discretion
Only had but one small question
Is it for real or just my obsession

Remembered the days when home was safe
When I could find you with a single gaze
When you would try to match my pace
Now I can’t even remember your face

I see a future where the past meets present
I see a present where past when I’m still a student
I see a past where time had every intent
I see nothing but now in fragment.

Day and Night

Crawling out in the morning,
Woke up by a mean little sting.
I’ll remember our little promise,
Remind you if you ever miss.

Look after my days,
cause it’s more than people says.
Moving through this immature phase,
Couldn’t help but part our ways.

Evening was fine,
As we drank together all the wine.
I slid back into blankets,
And you followed like little owlets.

Night was mine,
I promised you’ll be fine.
Cause I’m invincible,
It’s not that biblical.

Let this be a beginning,
A start to us finally winning.
A life lived all sorts of wrong,
Let this be my last song.

If I lose it all

Inspired by Attack on Titan intro by same name…

If I lose it all, slip and fall,
Will you look away?
If I lose it all, become so small,
Will you run away?
If I lose it all, lose it all, lose it all…

I never wanted to be the king,
I never wanted to hurt anything.
I never wanted to push you away,
I never wanted to get this way.

But I can’t see and look away,
In the midst of all this chaotic day.
All I wanted to be in peace,
You and me on some far-off beach.

If I lose it all, slip and fall,
Will you come find me babe?
If I lose it all, fall off the wall,
Will you pick me up again?
If I lose it all, lose it all, lose it all…

In this vast ocean of captivity,
All I think of is you and me.
Wish I didn’t have to go this way,
Wish it was some other way.

If I lose it all, can’t stand tall,
Will you fix me up again?
If I lose it all, slip and fall,
Will you look away?

Longings

Why do I have to run
From my place by your side
Why do I have to dream
To keep you within my sight

Where do I have to be
To make it worth your while
Where would you be
If only I missed your ride

How would you feel
To be amongst the stars
How would you know
If I left you any scars

Would you stand up
Still hold me by my side
Or would you run ahead
Knowing I can’t follow your tide

Why do I have to smile
Just so you can feel better
Why do I have to leave
Just so you will live forever

And I wish I could learn
To live on without dreaming
To leave the world to burn
Consumed by my own longing.